Change

Talk about a complete turnabout in my life.  I used to spend my days doing household chores, scrapbooking, running errands, tending to kids, browsing blogs, organizing all my "stuff", etc   Today I spent my time looking through boxes of paperwork, calling various insurance companies, learning stuff about farming, trying to make sense out of my dad's paperwork.  It's draining and confusing.  I think I called one sister no less than 5 times and emailed both sisters several times.
It's hard to deal with this type of stuff when you just want to grieve and do nothing else.  It seems like our life has stopped and it will never be the same again.  All 3 of us girls are having major life changes and it's a lot to deal with but at least we have each other.  I say in the end we can write a book about this.  Funny things, sad things, memories, drama, and unbelievable things people say to you at a time like this.  I've learned to "brace myself" if someone says "I don't mean to be rude but" ... you know something's coming out of their mouth that probably should have gone unsaid.  It's amazing how some people step up and are there .... people we didn't even know before Dad died.  It's those people that are helping us go on, give us support, and share wonderful stories of our dad to keep the good times.  I know life will continue to go on and things will be less overwhelming as we get it together.  We have plenty to keep us busy in the mean time which I think is a good thing .... maybe.